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Theres No Excuse For Imperfection

Anyone who bothered to follow me on here, Im on Xanga these days.
http://inkedupragdoll.xanga.com

PillFace

For She Is A Chunky Bittch & Knows All The Recipes For Pie

Dads going to Sydney For A Medical Scan thing tonight, well Tomorow. Night train. Thinks somethings bads happening to him..Hasnt eaten for the past 24 hours. Not even the cake i made to feed them. :( Got to be empty stomached so they can see whats not perfect. 

I should be empty stomached. :(

I Dont Know What Right Or Whats Real Anymore.

Ah. I Want To Write&Write, But I Cant Find Words To Do So With. I Think I Shall Just Leave Now. Drink A Bucket Of Water. & Perhaps Come Back To Stare At A Screen Again Later. Ah. =/

LittleCutOutPaperDoll

Clings to the thought of another soul in her arms.

Things change so suddenly, why this time wonder. pity shadowing a poor little box full of selfneglect&lowimage? little miss charity case sleeping in a tinderbox, meaning added through a little help here & there, shoved onto a seperate road according to voices tumbling in a head, rampaging with self importance? higher pedestal dreams perhaps?, or grabbing from the past to puzzle together a future like each individual piece, all jagged edges with the possibility of a hopeful image in the ending. Or just fate? 

Not sure what i beleive, or what i want to beleive. Do I Even Beleive? I Think So...

YellowHouse

I want to lay in the yellow house surrounded by the murmerings&eccentricities of artists, musicians, writers.
All Freaks Are Welcome.
that art lesson made me so happy, dreaming of making our own little yellow house.
stepping through a hole in the wall to our world.
Oh So Happy. Oh So Perfect.
lying on harleys in phsycadelic rooms, flashing lights, bombhit studios or seemingly so. everything inspiring, bouncing off the walls. Such a place calls me. this is how things look in my dream world.

I Feel So Sick.
Am Just having oats for dinner. Mum says i still have to eat.
I Have A Headache.
Ohtired Girl.
Dinners being called.
OhLord. Sigh.

Yellow House, Dear Yellow House.

YellowPills

These Pictures Made My Day.

I Wonder Why They Stare&bagg When They See The Real Thing But If It Was A Magazine Theyd Go ooh & Exchange Chinks Of Metal.

Kempsey. Town Of Sad Cases.

Hi My Names ImogenEllen Harris- Appleton & Welcome To My World.

Laying in multicoloured mess which i wear sleep & die on.

Feeding on everything in sight, staring into waterways.

Window shopping online & being broke.

Working weekends, sleep deprived school life.

Best girls ever in my life.

How did i ever get so lucky?

Sitting On my floor again. mum&dad are probley lying awake waiting for me to turn my light off, its still strange being down this end of the house. Strange Strange. i really miss my sister tonight. myfmyfmyf.

just realised reading through blogs tonight that georgina had a xanga, cant find it but thats probley for obvious reasons. i never go on mine anymore. perhaps i should..Hm.

Corlaay Says things should be harder for us because were younger. I dont think thats a viable excuse. Theres a reason why we are here, if we wernt good enough we wouldnt be.  Ill walk out before i cry for you, as special a man as you may be. Things Are Hard yes, But Things Are Still Hard When Your 80.

Theres only One Life. This One. No After Life For Me, When Im Gone, Im Gone. Finished.FullStop. Forgotten.

Time Ticks On.

Sure Black Makes Me Look Thinner, But I Think Tonight I'll keep the colour, im not ready for full black tonight.

Not tonight.

Oh Its Funny How Quickly The World Spins & We Change.

Everyones growing up, growing old & quite frankly Im Scared.

Forever Young, I want To be Forever Young.

RedLipped RedHaired Red Nailed Whore

Some boy told me earlier

'Let us be grateful to the people who make us happy: theyre the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom."

How can someone be so lucky, so happy & still think the things that run through my mind?
How could someone ever be so ungrateful.
But that works both ways you look at it.
Theyre talking of moving again, he always does, but he never leaves..usually because i kick up a fuss, saying how im attatched here, i cant go, school, friends, work.
But there was a few months inbetween, i would have packed left & never turned back for a second glance, so why didnt i?
Im not sure.
But when he started again today, i thought about it. & i couldnt move away from this area if i tried. i cant imagine me trying to do yr 11 &12 anyother place, with any other people.
Little things.
Like seeing the girls walk in through the gates,
seeing sharyns dimples, sams hair, georginas smile. Each with the way they talk, their personalites.
Lunchtimes in tass's arms, or docks office, or running round, or sitting down, or in the artrooms or away in a dreamland. I Cant imagine that anywhere else.
I Cant Imagine Not having Any of This.
But he seems so determined now.
Though shes more settled now, with her kids & all. finally got a job she loves.
I Dont think shed let him move us all.
Not until the twins move out, and then it wont really matter will it.

Why do i think these things?

Why? when everythings so good & the things that arent are just emotions?

Why did i do that? Before, & why did i get scared.

It was what i wanted, i know it, at least i knew it.

& why did i let fear tell the last person id ever want knowing.

I wonder if they think about what almost happened as much as i do.

Do they wonder if it could happen again.

Are they as scared as me?

Who knows what anyone is capable of until it is finished.

Still she haunts me phantomwise, Alice moving under skies, Never Seen by Waking Eyes.

Alice

Yesterday made me sooo happy.

CarRide.

PortRiding The Town & Drowning In Jealous Stares.

(They wish they were as cool as us)

ICE bargainning georgina style

ALICE IN WONDERLAND

(ooh must be so funny)

{Well Yes It Happens To be Hillarious, To bad You Didnt Be Cool Enough To get In On The Joke. Bitchhhess}

Toilets

(im not even sittingg down yet! BAHAHA)

PancakeePlace

omnomnomnom.

HappyBirthdayToyou.Happy Birthday Dearrr Glennyyyyy.

Repeat xwhatstuitsyourfancy

:D

Ah.

Ah.

:)