DearOldBlogspot

Theres No Excuse For Imperfection

Anyone who bothered to follow me on here, Im on Xanga these days.
http://inkedupragdoll.xanga.com

PillFace

For She Is A Chunky Bittch & Knows All The Recipes For Pie

Dads going to Sydney For A Medical Scan thing tonight, well Tomorow. Night train. Thinks somethings bads happening to him..Hasnt eaten for the past 24 hours. Not even the cake i made to feed them. :( Got to be empty stomached so they can see whats not perfect. 

I should be empty stomached. :(

I Dont Know What Right Or Whats Real Anymore.

Ah. I Want To Write&Write, But I Cant Find Words To Do So With. I Think I Shall Just Leave Now. Drink A Bucket Of Water. & Perhaps Come Back To Stare At A Screen Again Later. Ah. =/

LittleCutOutPaperDoll

Clings to the thought of another soul in her arms.

Things change so suddenly, why this time wonder. pity shadowing a poor little box full of selfneglect&lowimage? little miss charity case sleeping in a tinderbox, meaning added through a little help here & there, shoved onto a seperate road according to voices tumbling in a head, rampaging with self importance? higher pedestal dreams perhaps?, or grabbing from the past to puzzle together a future like each individual piece, all jagged edges with the possibility of a hopeful image in the ending. Or just fate? 

Not sure what i beleive, or what i want to beleive. Do I Even Beleive? I Think So...

YellowHouse

I want to lay in the yellow house surrounded by the murmerings&eccentricities of artists, musicians, writers.
All Freaks Are Welcome.
that art lesson made me so happy, dreaming of making our own little yellow house.
stepping through a hole in the wall to our world.
Oh So Happy. Oh So Perfect.
lying on harleys in phsycadelic rooms, flashing lights, bombhit studios or seemingly so. everything inspiring, bouncing off the walls. Such a place calls me. this is how things look in my dream world.

I Feel So Sick.
Am Just having oats for dinner. Mum says i still have to eat.
I Have A Headache.
Ohtired Girl.
Dinners being called.
OhLord. Sigh.

Yellow House, Dear Yellow House.

YellowPills

These Pictures Made My Day.

I Wonder Why They Stare&bagg When They See The Real Thing But If It Was A Magazine Theyd Go ooh & Exchange Chinks Of Metal.

Kempsey. Town Of Sad Cases.

Hi My Names ImogenEllen Harris- Appleton & Welcome To My World.

Laying in multicoloured mess which i wear sleep & die on.

Feeding on everything in sight, staring into waterways.

Window shopping online & being broke.

Working weekends, sleep deprived school life.

Best girls ever in my life.

How did i ever get so lucky?

Sitting On my floor again. mum&dad are probley lying awake waiting for me to turn my light off, its still strange being down this end of the house. Strange Strange. i really miss my sister tonight. myfmyfmyf.

just realised reading through blogs tonight that georgina had a xanga, cant find it but thats probley for obvious reasons. i never go on mine anymore. perhaps i should..Hm.

Corlaay Says things should be harder for us because were younger. I dont think thats a viable excuse. Theres a reason why we are here, if we wernt good enough we wouldnt be.  Ill walk out before i cry for you, as special a man as you may be. Things Are Hard yes, But Things Are Still Hard When Your 80.

Theres only One Life. This One. No After Life For Me, When Im Gone, Im Gone. Finished.FullStop. Forgotten.

Time Ticks On.

Sure Black Makes Me Look Thinner, But I Think Tonight I'll keep the colour, im not ready for full black tonight.

Not tonight.

Oh Its Funny How Quickly The World Spins & We Change.

Everyones growing up, growing old & quite frankly Im Scared.

Forever Young, I want To be Forever Young.

RedLipped RedHaired Red Nailed Whore

Some boy told me earlier

'Let us be grateful to the people who make us happy: theyre the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom."

How can someone be so lucky, so happy & still think the things that run through my mind?
How could someone ever be so ungrateful.
But that works both ways you look at it.
Theyre talking of moving again, he always does, but he never leaves..usually because i kick up a fuss, saying how im attatched here, i cant go, school, friends, work.
But there was a few months inbetween, i would have packed left & never turned back for a second glance, so why didnt i?
Im not sure.
But when he started again today, i thought about it. & i couldnt move away from this area if i tried. i cant imagine me trying to do yr 11 &12 anyother place, with any other people.
Little things.
Like seeing the girls walk in through the gates,
seeing sharyns dimples, sams hair, georginas smile. Each with the way they talk, their personalites.
Lunchtimes in tass's arms, or docks office, or running round, or sitting down, or in the artrooms or away in a dreamland. I Cant imagine that anywhere else.
I Cant Imagine Not having Any of This.
But he seems so determined now.
Though shes more settled now, with her kids & all. finally got a job she loves.
I Dont think shed let him move us all.
Not until the twins move out, and then it wont really matter will it.

Why do i think these things?

Why? when everythings so good & the things that arent are just emotions?

Why did i do that? Before, & why did i get scared.

It was what i wanted, i know it, at least i knew it.

& why did i let fear tell the last person id ever want knowing.

I wonder if they think about what almost happened as much as i do.

Do they wonder if it could happen again.

Are they as scared as me?

Who knows what anyone is capable of until it is finished.

Still she haunts me phantomwise, Alice moving under skies, Never Seen by Waking Eyes.

Alice

Yesterday made me sooo happy.

CarRide.

PortRiding The Town & Drowning In Jealous Stares.

(They wish they were as cool as us)

ICE bargainning georgina style

ALICE IN WONDERLAND

(ooh must be so funny)

{Well Yes It Happens To be Hillarious, To bad You Didnt Be Cool Enough To get In On The Joke. Bitchhhess}

Toilets

(im not even sittingg down yet! BAHAHA)

PancakeePlace

omnomnomnom.

HappyBirthdayToyou.Happy Birthday Dearrr Glennyyyyy.

Repeat xwhatstuitsyourfancy

:D

Ah.

Ah.

:)

Quotes.

What is a face, really?  Its own photo?  Its make-up?  Or is it a face as painted by such or such painter?  That which is in front?  Inside?  Behind?  And the rest?  Doesn't everyone look at himself in his own particular way?  Deformations simply do not exist.  ~Pablo Picasso
Humankind cannot bear very much reality.  ~T.S. Eliot
I feel like a fugitive from the law of averages.  ~William H. Mauldin


I Like Quotes Alot.
Now I Am Ever IncreasinglyTired, With A Verry Sore Throat. :(
Goodnight.
I Shall See You Beautiful Happy Morning in a few hours. 

Keeled On A Tile Floor

Today Was Very Nice While At School.

But Right Now I Feel Like Shit.

Bloated, Sore Throated. I Look Like A Wreck. My Daddy Said So Too, Just Not In As Nice A Words. Why Am I Such A Shit Daughter? I have It Soo Good. 

A Year After The Rest, Moments In The Past, Hours In The Future. Always Dreaming. UsuallyHappy. Is It Meant To Be Like This? Time Is Nothing But Manmade, Just Like The Rest. Tick.Tock.Tick.Tock. It Only Goes Because We Beleive In It. Time Can Stop. Time Can Fade Away. We Could Be Timeless, Imagine That. If Everyone Just Stopped Beleiving.

Work Tomorow.Should Be good, just thinking, yeah ill be paid for this.

Broke Materliastic Bitch.

Then Alice. I Hope Its Fanttastic.

Ill Probley Wake Up Tomorow.

Have Oats.

Head To Work.

Work.

Get Picked Up,& Then The Smiles Will Start Exploding.

One Can Spend Their Life Wishing.

Talking, Saying.

People May Not Beleive What You Say, But They Wil Beleive What You Do.

Is That Why No One Beleives Me?

..

Im All Talk, A Silly Little Wreck Of A Voice Chattering Away until Her Time Is Up.

BlackBras

Had a Beautiful Day today.
Red Onioning.
Having The Joint Best Legs In The school.
Dreaming of Alice Saturday Night.
Harajuku Photoshooting Monday.
Im Feeling Rather Largee.
I hate my whooshes. i wish i had them none.
Got Home.Ate, Did Art, Ate, Watched Some CharliesAngels, Some Fame, Ate, Did More Art, Packing For School, & Now Sitting In Bed In My Brickie Tshirt & Writing Up Bloggs :D
Im A Lazy Bitchh..
I Stole Another Vogue From School Today.
One Day I Will Have A Big Collection :)
Ooh Alice, i cannot wait. outfit is as such.
Black Patterned Stockings.
Black Legwarmers.
Brown LaceUp HighHeels.
Black Corset.
RedHair, Poofed Up With A Few Extensions Here & There.
PoofyBlack Skirt Under Corset.
Black Leather Jacket. 
red lips, brown over blue eyes, possibly red nails..mm.<3

Ooh I Want To Go Noww.
I Think i Shall Wake Up Early Tomorow.

Looking Like A 50s Girl.

Feeling Like a 60s.

Arting Like a 70s.

Dressing Like The 80s.

Born in the 90s.

Living In The Now.

I Can Smell Chemicals

Sitting on the bathroom floor with a baggy grey top, darker grey tights & black legwarmers, cradling a cup of lukewarm hot chocolate with a head full of dye.
A conversation got me thinking today...Is It Easier To Make Your Own Way, Carve Your Own Expectations Of Yourself For The First & Only Time, Or To Have Your Expectations Already There, & To Have To Fufill Them, Nomatter How High The Bar? ..I Dont Know.
Well..Thats My Repetetive thought for the day..Red Onion Tomorow. I Hope Georgina Bought Her Moneys Along. If All Goes According to plan i should be on a train this time tomorow. ChooChoo. :)
I Have toothpaste on my face and its all dry & crackly,  i shall wash it off when i wake up in a few hours...see if my many acnied face has faded slightly. I Really Hate Faults, Little Uglinesses Peeking Through someone who has potential to be perfect, staring&laughing at the person & screaming 'look at me, look at me' to all passers by.

In a Wonderland they lie,

Dreaming as the days go by,

Dreaming as the summers die: Lewis Carroll.

I Enjoy Him Alott. I need to enlarge my vocabulary, and stop my foul language.
& I Need To Sleep.

Tomorow I Shall Wake Up, have some UncleTobys Oats, 

Wash My Face, Do My Hair&Makeup.

Do The Clothes

Check The packings.

Hop On The Bus. 

Ah.

Oats

Im sitting in the middle of a pile of lovely clothes georgiina bought me along today. They really make me bubble. :) Ah i am soo tired, decided to didnt feel like Zen tonight, running round while im whooshing like the freaking niagra, doing the spilts & rolling with people. Bought some UncleTobys Oats, as sam&george rave about them. :) they are quitee the nice thing :D so far ive had two bowls.

I Feel Massive.

got that feeling of hunger i get with my whooshes and devoured half a block of chocolate, 6 peices of nougat, slice of quiche, parmesan cheese, 2 bowls oats, few spoons of some sticky coconut indian sweet thing, & about to have a caramel latte.

Finishing off my visual, presenting tomorow. :) that'll make me feel much better i hope.

I hope brendon doesnt make it to the leadership thing, because i want to snaffle up his position.

I got a fancy Chocochino thing to place on Dockrills shelf :) i hope it pleases him as much as it will me :)

OH! We now have a FANCY shop in kempsey. The shoetique&the boutique moved & made a FANCYSHOP and it looks like a corner of newtown landed in shitville kempsey, & It Made My Heart Glow, perhaps theres hope yet. 

I simply feel like sleeping.

Perhaps ill just do an hour tomorow, and sleep it off tonight.

SO EXCITED for Alice. :D

As soonn as i finish work they shall snatch me up &in a whisk of black&fanciness, possibly red hair & heels, we shall turn into creatures of wonderland & make Earth So Darn Jealous. Im So HappyHappyHappy.

Will Write More Later.

Ive So Much In My Mind Tonight..

SugarPills,WhiteWeek

My Light is Buzzing Like Crazy & Driving me Mad. Time For A BodyBitch.

<here was inserted a massive bitch about my body & everything i found imperfect, massive rant about everything in the physical aspect, i wrote, i sighed.i highlighted & deleted & will replace with this, because, truley. i complain too much>

Dont Get Me Wrong. Life Is Beautiful.
Just Not Me, not Yet. :)

~~~~
Ah Dear Modcloth, Dear Fredflare, Dear Vogue, Its A Dreaming  MaterialisticCakeFace Here, && I Just Thought Id Let You Know I Adore You.
~~~~

why is it somepeople find it so fascinating putting barbies in sexual positions and taking photos of it? im mean, sure we've all done it, but theres just so many of you out there taking photos of the girls at it, and their not even pretty photos, if your going to bother putting them on show on the internet, at least make them pretty. i feel like facepalming the lot of you.

I Adore Baggy Black Clothing. I Think I Will Collect It All. <3

Making whitechocolate raspberry muffins tomorow. OmNomNom. not so good for the waist line, but ill burn it off :) Burn Baby Burn :D
Im so sick of that light, i simply switched it off, so now im sitting here in the dark.
Ooh. :) My Toes Are Cold.

Think ill go grab a caramel latte or a soyhotchocolate...then head to bed. I Wish  I Had Massive Hair.

It Was A Beautiful Day

Today Was So So So Lovely. I Think All Days Should Be Such A This One.

Just Sitting here with a caramel latte, i had a little fancy nouget for dinner. i think i shall have some more.

Slips and pulls the table cloth

Overturns a coffee-cup,

Reorganized upon the floor

She yawns and draws a stocking up;

-Sweeney Among The Nightingales, T.S Elliot

Conversations On A Legends Floors With Overflowing cups full of Milo&Coffee & Owned Fancy Milk  , Lovely art lessons & The English Staffroom. I Cant wait to do my artwork now.:) I Will make everyone beautiful&perfect&Coffee stained &inksplattered&sketched&painted&Absolute. These things make me a happy girl. 

McCaulay Talked With me & Georgina Today. I Quite Liked That Conversation.

We Are Not Simply Put On This World To Reproduce. Fuck Year8 P.E Cartoons.

TS Elliot, Tickles My Fancy So Much My Heart Spasms. Truley, I Marry That Man Every Second I Read His Poetry. Hm, Think I Shall Go Watch Charlies Angels, Have another latte perhaps, then ride my bike for 30, then have a shower. Possibly write up some stuff for english  or drama, My Visual or play Ideas. But for now. :) I shall bask in loveliness&In the happiness tomorow will Bring.

Adoration&Kisses To All. :)

<3

ClearSkies.SaltedRain.

As One Part Shrinks, Another Grows.

& When Such a part blows as dust in a passing breeze, inspiration is caught like a butterfly in the net of your mind. Make of it what you will.

For The wheels will spin for a set time, and then you will learn to fly.

I Think each of us are learning to fly in all our very different ways. But everynow & then, you can see when their feet lift. :) & it helps lift us all. :)
Today Was Lovely.
Had hothotmilo with Georgina in our safe little sanctuary, and chatted. Thats the most meaningful&memorable time i have had in months, possibly a year. I dont know if that means much, though to me it does. :)
I hope we can all see Alice on the weekend. That would be  a perfect end&start to a perfect week&another. :)
For when the wind blows over a stem, i see a backbone. If I Was rich, i would pay for a transformation. instead of being a caterpillar, i would morph into a doll. <3
I like my art these days. I Love coffee stains, both metaphorically & literally. For they both brighten my world up in more than one sense. they make things beautiful.
I have a new obsession with black clothes, with slight patterns as such. Big Baggy Black Shirts as dresses with beautiful tights, lovely shoes, massive hair, perfect makeup & the perfect accesories. White loose singlets & cardigans are acceptable also. I Adore All These.

Please good fortune, path my way.
I have a meeting with Ts Elliot & those i love tomorow afternoon, then i will travel home with my mum in our white van with the red stripe, & come home to an eager to be finished English visual which i will try very hard on.

There Are Four Girls In My World Which I Think Will Be Subjected To Having Me In Their Life A Very Very Long Time.

I Dont Fit

The World Wants Me Perfect, & Nothing Less.

Got An Idea for My Visual, started working on it today, Rode for an hour today, read Heart of Darkness today. Went to the markets, went to church. i felt happyish at the markets, many people said i looked lovely&gorgeous. That made me smile. I adore this picture, have drawn a few, i like this style. Is very pretty. i think i shall bookmark The great world with a beautiful bookmark..see if i can find $3 so i can go coffee hunting with Georgina :) pack my books&bag for school tomorow like a goodkid, Iron my schoolshirt&place it all ready. Wake Up tomorow, ride, have breakky, ride. Shower. Brushteeth, Do Hair, Do Makeup, Get it all set. Grab ipod, grab book&bag & walk one foot in front of the other onto the jailtruck, sending me into green iron bars, where somethings are nice, but most are not. I Can see a chocolate pie crust on my table and it makes me sad. I know where that pie is now. Flood&Dissapear. I Wish i had really big FAT poofyhair, & a teenytiny stickfigure. 

 i wish i was a camel so when i spat it wouldn't matter and being ugly would be part of who i am

i wish that i was a ghost
a god damn hypocrite host
to party all the life time thats right here .

The World Wants Me Perfect & Will Not Accept Anything A GoldBarBeneath.